WHERE IT ALL BEGAN
- MKG
- Apr 5, 2016
- 5 min read
Goodmorning everyone! It is a chilly day here in Jacksonville, I can hear the wind howling as it hits our windows. This type of day only makes my writing time more enjoyable. I absolutely love curling up on my couch, under a blanket with my laptop and a hot cup of tea. Yes I drink tea now. My sweet husband has gotten me to fall in love. There is just something about holding a hot mug I guess. It is very calm in our home today. Logan left for work this morning around five. The kittens are curled up on their play post, and Sully is out cold on the floor, snoring louder than ever. Those sedatives are working really well. Without him running around and demanding my attention, I have been able to get some household chores done, as well as get my morning exercises in! Logan and I are motivating each other to eat healthier and workout every day. So far, so good. We are managing, but let me just say that I am already craving chocolate and peanut butter. It is going to be a long process, but well worth it. I read more from 1 Peter this morning and I came across a verse that has very special meaning to me. “Give all your cares and worries to God, for he cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:7 About two years ago, before Logan left for boot camp, he hold me that if there were ever nights that I couldn’t sleep, to just randomly open up my bible and just read. The Lord will give you exactly what you need. One night I was having a really hard night, so I opened up my bible and this was the verse I began to read and it was exactly what I needed. God shows up in so many ways, with exactly what you need. This was just the reminder that I needed today, as well as a little reminiscing on some sweet memories!
Today is day two of my launch series, and I wanted to tell you how it all began, what sparked my thought process. So, funny thing actually.. Writing about Lines of Faith was the hardest thing for me to write. I know, crazy right? Especially because it doesn’t typically work that way. Typically, when you come up with an idea, something that sets a fire within your heart, explaining it should just come naturally. But, for me it didn’t.
Faith, it’s not that hard to write about… is it? It couldn’t be. I think part of the reason was because I wanted it to be worded perfectly, therefore I put a lot of added pressure on myself and on my thoughts, which made my mind become crowded. I would write and write in one direction and then another possible direction would suddenly appear in my head and before I knew it I had pages of miscellaneous notes. I knew the outcome, I knew what I wanted to explain, I just didn’t know the best way to go about it. I stepped away from my laptop for a few days, just to give my head some rest. I thought, maybe in the next few days my thoughts would be woken up by the right direction to take. Wrong. Again, I just typed more miscellaneous jumbles that didn’t quite have a way of connecting. As an inspired writer, this is really hard to admit. It is hard to admit that you hit a wall where things just aren’t flowing like they normally do. Like why now brain? Why did you choose now to shut off all creative juices? I swear, though, my mind usually never stops wondering, the thoughts are endless, of course only when I am not solely working on one focal point.
So I made a phone call, and I rambled (poor Logan). I went on and on about how the world was over all because a few silly thoughts weren’t coming to me like I demanded them to. “There must be something wrong with me right?” I must have convinced myself of that somewhere in the middle of the “I give ups” and the “this plan is ruined” He just laughs at me. Seriously? You are going to sit there and laugh at me while I am having a mid-thought writing crisis! “Madi. Take a deep breath.” Breathing here!!!! “Let go of the control” I release my clenched hands. He knows me so well.. “Just have faith that the words will come to you in the right moment.” LIGHT BULB! (Oh thank you Logan Gold!) And just like that… the words came to me…. Faith is exactly that. It is taking a deep breath, letting go of YOUR control, and handing it over to God. It is having great confidence in Him and trusting the fact that HE will allow the right things to come to you in the right moments. It’s the ability to believe in the Lord’s plans without proof of the outcome, and still remain tall, standing there unshaken. And as Christians, that is what we are called to do. We are to have an unshakable faith for the Lord and walk in relationship with him! The problem is, though, we tend put our faith elsewhere. How is it that we can trust a friend who has let us down time and time again, but we can't trust that Christ will follow through? Now, I am as guilty as ever when it comes to this. I mean hello... who isn't? We all doubt God. Doubting Him though is not where we go wrong, it is what we do with our doubt that is wrong. We give in to our doubts! We dismiss God when things go wrong and invite the devil in to feed into our doubtful thoughts, causing our faith to become smaller. Our heads are filled with worldly lies and false hopes that our doubt creates. We actually start believing the doubts (scary right?). Instead of trusting what God has in store, we choose to put that aside and see what the world has to offer. After all, the world doubts God so why shouldn’t we? This is why being faithful is hard. It can be hard to trust what God is doing when the world around you is beginning to slip through your fingers. It is hard to be strong when the people in your life make you feel weak. But it is at your weakest point where you need to choose faith over giving up. It is in that moment when you need to stop, take a deep breath, loosen the world’s grip, and cling to God. That is when you need to let your unshakable faith stand, and remind yourself that even though you feel stuck, the Lord has your way out!
God,
Today I come to you with all of my doubts. Instead of giving in to them, help me give them to you instead. I know there have been times where I have chosen to dismiss you instead of trust you. Remind me daily that you have a purpose and a plan for my life. Let me wake up with a positive mindset and a heart that is open to whatever you may put in my life. Help me choose faith. In tough moments, help me take a deep breath, loosen the world’s grip around me, and cling to you. Thank you for giving me purpose and providing a way for me everyday!
Amen
Tomorrow’s post shares the story of one of my favorite characters from the Bible. His faith is unshakable, and a great model for how our faith should be.
Thinking of you all today! Thank you for stopping in.
MKG
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